Merry Christmas! Monday, Dec 21 2009 

So, I have a plan. I’m going to write a new Christmas world story, one that I should have written ages ago, and I’m going to post it. I’ve had this plan for ages.

Have I acted on it yet?

Not so much.

So, this is the new plan. When Mom, Dad and I travel to my grandma’s for Christmas, and there is no internet, and I’m mostly hanging out in the basement, I will be working on my Honors Project (which I must finish 20 pages of by the beginning of the next semester of school), but I will also be writing and editing this small story, ready to post as a post-Christmas treat.

Yes, there will be something new to read, something interesting (I guarantee that at least) and I will post it directly after I get back into the zone of internet. *grin* 

Well, good night, and thanks for reading! And have a great Christmas, see you when we get back! *waves cheerfully*

My Theme Songs Monday, Dec 7 2009 

I blame this, once more, on Ensei.  She made me do it!   TTATT

…but it was fun.

Basically, fire up whatever musical program you use most, put on shuffle and repeat (yes, yes, we’ve done this a million times for a million different questionnaires), and then write down whatever song plays next to the theme song you’re on.  So start with the first one, the Opening Theme of your life, and then hit play on your program.  Whatever song is played, write that title down for your Opening Theme, and then either listen to it to the end (if you super-like it), or go ahead and skip to get whatever song is next in your life!  Here’s mine:

Opening theme: 月をも焦がせ不死の炎、燃ゆるは憤怒の狼煙
This is a vaguely creepy song, rather long, from Comiket ’75.

Song You Wake Up To: Ave Maria, D 839 by Franz Schubert
….I think I’m going back to sleep….

Fall in Love: Bonus Diaries of Olan Piano Suite from Final Fantasy
At least it’s pretty.  Feels kind of ominously sad to me.  =3=

Fight Song: Suiheisen no Mukou ni from Kurenai
Trust me, it’s not the song you found on Youtube.  However, find any of the music from kurenai, and you’ll get basically what it feels like; all the music from there feels the same to me after a while.  Side note: my fight……..is very mellow and sad.  I feel like my life story is a shoujo, not a shounen story.  =3=  I don’t get any fun fight scenes?  Well, I guess it would be actually kind of cool to fight to this song.  I guess my fights are very emotional and sad, very touching.

Breaking Up: Awai no Omoi from Rozen Maiden
Another one Youtube won’t find for me, since it’s really just bg music from the show.  It’s rather reflective, I guess…  How can I put it?  It’s a sweet song, like I remember the good times.  At least I guess I won’t just get depressed?

Daily Life: Shurrey Hills from Tales of the Abyss (video game)
Wow, my daily life sounds really…..spiritual/magical?  Well, that’s a cool thing!  That and since it’s a dungeon, it does sound a bit ‘travel’-y.  And like I should be finding a treasure chest around the next corner.  Man, I love this game.  It’s kind of cool that one of it’s songs made it’s way into this list!

Mental Breakdown: Space Lion from Cowboy Bebop OST
Cowboy Bebop’s music is too popular for me to NOT find this song.
How can I say this?  My mental breakdown is me supah-depressed, followed by some kind of breakthrough, I guess.  I see a theme, here…  Well, either that or I’m on an acid trip.

Driving: The Celestial Capital – Al’Taieu from Final Fantasy XI Chains of Promathia
I haven’t even played this game.  Why did I get the music again?  And wow, it’s on Youtube.  Man, if this is me driving, I’m afraid I’m going to fall asleep in the car.  At least gimme something with lyrics!  TAT!  Well, I guess important things don’t really happen when driving, so a low-key song would fit it…?

Flashback Music: Cosmic Dare ~ Pretty with a Pistol from Cowboy Bebop the Movie
Wow, one with lyrics, that is upbeat!  An actual pop song!  I guess I have a lot of fun in my flashbacks…

Wedding: 名前のない歌 by Pizzicato Strings, Comiet ’75
Sadly one that isn’t on Youtube again.  It’s….sad?  =A=  I think I’ll actually get the lyrics up here at some time, since I can actually understand them easily.

Birth of Our Child: Besaid Island Piano Theme from Final Fantasy X
I think this is less just the birth and more the first few years of the kid’s life.  Still, good song – upbeat, nice, strong.  Yay?

Final Battle!: 水平線まで何マイル (Piano Version) from ABHAR Comiket ’75
Well, I can find the regular version, but I got the piano one.  Thank goodness.  Still, again, my battle sounds more reflective and sad instead of dangerous.  Yeah, I’m in a shoujo.  Dangit.

Funeral: dewdrops from Tsubasa Chronicles
My death seems a lot like my life…  That kind of beautiful song that’s sad, happy, reflective and all that jazz.  At least it’s pretty!  And Yuki Kajiura, who is one of my favorite composers.

Ending Theme: Kairi I from Kingdom Hearts
Huh.  I feel like I’m in the end of a video game, and this is after the credits have rolled, and you’re just watching the last glowing picture at the end.  Well, KH is a video game, so that helps, but still.  It’s….a “Well, it’s over, but it’ll continue on, you know.” kind of song.  Huh.

So I couldn’t find four of them.  Not bad, I think, considering how obscure some of those were.  My life is very good, apparently.  Not one song was incredibly dark or depressing, and the most depressing one here (Space Lion) ends in a wonderfully transcendant way.  There’s another song, Julia, which is the same song but without the drumming ending, so it’s just depressing, so it’s nice I didn’t get that one…

Yeah, I’m in a shoujo.  Bah.

No time to draw right now, super-busy all of a sudden!  I’ll get back to y’all laters!

Encroaching gremlaur and other strange news Friday, Dec 4 2009 

The disturbing thing about having a world where anything can happen (like the Wizard world, to which Kev and Peony are distantly attached) is that anything can happen. I’ve been thinking about gremlaur (the part elf, part dwarf creepy warlike race from Warped Christmast world ["Savior Coming"]) and suddenly a little story popped into my head while I was being driven back to school. But the trick is that I’m pretty sure the story involves the chick from “Wizards and Peanuts,” who, if you remember, was last seen vanishing down an inter-dimensional rift with a couple of hair-brained wizard brothers. Where has she been? What has she been doing? I don’t know, but now she’s meeting a gremlaur, and I’m disturbed, because Wizard world and Christmas world seem to be wanting to creep together.

This is my secret for huge, sprawling, incredibly intricate universes. I constantly make up little ideas, worlds, characters, and gradually the ideas that have enough in common drift toward each other, until one day they fuse, and begin creating their own ideas. Rather like making dust from stars.

But I really think that Wizard and Christmas world have nothing in common and should stay as far away from each other as possible. They have completely contrasting tones, the characters have nothing in common, the plots are structured completely differently, and yet both worlds have these disturbing little feelers that are moving closer and closer to each other, like two sea creatures following pleasing pheromones (I don’t think sea creatures actually follow pheromones, but I thought the analogy was cool anyway).

Enough complaining. Here’s the story/fragment/moment/exploration of characters:

    –   —   — 

The light rain falling on my nose woke me, and I sat up jerkily, my heart racing as though ready to jump out and start punching people. My stomach sloshed, my head pounded, and hallucinations danced on the edges of my eyes. I shut them, the eyes that is, and wondered with dull terror what I had done

For a second I thought the little man roasting meat six feet away from me was another hallucination. I once saw pink mice scampering around my feet for half an hour after a power seizure. Then he looked up at me, his long pointed ears twitching slightly, and smiled a cheerful but carefully close-lipped smile.

“Meat?” he asked.

For a second I thought he was wondering if I was some, and then he held up a burnt portion of some animal. Hunger warred with nausea in my stomach, and for a second I had to fight to keep the bile down. “What is it?”

His eyes scrunched together in amusement. “If you have to ask, you probably don’t want any.

He put his meal back on the fire and watched it somberly, like one of those creepy gargoyles on old churches, the ones that look like they are planning how to get down to the ground without getting completely smashed. I thought about his comment for a second, turning possibilities over in my head, and then checked myself for missing limbs.

Amused, he watched me from the corner of his eye and turned the meat on the spit.

He ended up surprising me by breaking the silence first. “Thank you, by the way,” he said.

“For what?” I asked.

He raised his eyebrows, surprised in turn, and nodded beyond the fire.

You might think it horrible of me, but that was the first time I noticed the bodies. But then again, you haven’t had the last few weeks I’d had. At that point, I had barely enough energy to feel a dull, steady pulse of horror that wasn’t even enough to reawaken the slowly subsiding nausea. Cast in the red glow of his fire, covered in darkened blood and soft drips of new rain, they looked like so many wax figures left over from a slasher movie. A feeling of horror beat in my brain along with the headache and just made me want to cry.

There were at least five of them, men, sprawled in various levels of damage. They were all pale skinned, but tanned, and dressed in rough leathers. Their weapons were good quality (at least as much as I could tell from the week I’d been worrying about these things). Most had died of some kind of slashing wound, but a couple had flesh burns across their faces. I would bet those were mine.

“What exactly did I do?” I asked, just to be sure.

He tested the meat again and then set it aside. “You stumbled upon us. Literally stumbled, I saw you trip as you entered. But when you realized that the sons of dogs were trying to do to me, you got a beautiful look on your face. I swear the goddess walked with you for that second, because you lit up like her blade in the winter sky.” I must have looked confused, because he pointed into the cloudy night. “The ribbon of light, greens and blues that appears in the winter, that’s her blade. The ones closest began burning. While they were distracted, I managed to get out my sword and start gutting the bastards. So, for the distraction, I thank you. Humans call me Niski. I assume that will do for you as well.”

I’d been called a lot of things since starting this unwilling journey. Demon, prophecy and “Hey, you!” were some of the top rankers, but I’d never been a blade of the goddess before. I looked at the bodies again, more carefully this time. All of them, even the two with facial burns, had been slashed across the throat. A couple had their chests snapped open, as though someone had cut through the ribs just to be absolutely sure the heart wasn’t beating. This guy, whoever he was, was certainly good at killing people.

“Niski, are you heading somewhere in particular?”

He swallowed a bit of his meat. “Anywhere but home. You?”

“I’m trying to get to Central City. I have an issue with seizures, as you’ve seen, and I could uses someone as backup when I’m passed out.” As long as you’re not an illusion, I thought. “And you’ve obviously useful in a fight.”

He shrugged off the complement, as one shrugs off facts. Your eyes are blue, your ears are pointed, you can kill five men while they are recovering from an easy distraction.

“I could travel in that direction for a bit,” he said. “And it would be a pleasure to travel beside one who seemed, for a moment, the blade of the goddess

I laughed tiredly. Odd little man, I thought. Odd, creepy little monster. The rain had stopped, the nausea and the headache were almost gone and the horror had fallen away again. In my calmer moments, I worried how easily I got over my disgust and revulsion. I ended up feeling hollow and unnaturally calm, surrounded by so much death.

“Tell me true,” I said, remembering the cracked-open corpses. “What kind of meat are you cooking?”

He took another big bite and swallowed it after barely chewing. Then he grinned at me, flashing every last razor sharp, pearly tooth in his unnaturally wide mouth. “Carrion,” he said.

I should have been shocked or frightened, but it had been a long week, and for the first time since the power seizures started hitting I was amused and almost felt safe. After all, if he had wanted to kill and eat me, it would have made more sense while I was knocked out

“Do you always eat carrion?” I asked

“Well, it’s always dead when I cut it up,” he answered. I nodded, tired again. “That’s good enough for me. If you don’t mind, Niski, I’m going to go back to sleep.”

The power seizures always make me exhausted. You’d think that anything that completely knocks you out for hours (the wizards had told me I was out for an average of two and a half hours after each attack) would let you rest up while you were unconscious, but I dream each time, and with lights, colors and nightmares running through my mind, I can’t rest. The dreams are almost worse than the seizures.

He nodded in reply. “I’ll shout if anything shows up.”

Gremlaur, I thought as I settled back into sleep. He’s a gremlaur, and I should watch myself until those wizard brothers find me again. And even then I knew it was the prophecy talking, because I knew what it meant. But I couldn’t really care that the little, elfin man was very dangerous, and shouldn’t be in my story to begin with. As far as I was concerned, I didn’t belong in this story either. I relaxed and curled up next to the fire before the part of me that is power could work up a proper panic. And as easily as that, consciousness went the way of horror and slipped softly away.

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